sothismedias

I planted lettuce today, in extremely hot weather. I’ve been filling the bottom of the containers with wood from the decaying woodpile left over from the cutdown tree project of 10 years ago. It’s been good hard wood, but years of rain, snow and sprinklers have given a lot of mice and insects a nice habitat. Now that I am retired, I’m spending a lot more time digging up things around the house. I have never been happier. I have my time back. I answer to no one. I read and write, and am trying to put my life in order.

I’m reconnecting with my people all over, now that I have been stripped of my place at the center of the glorious Boise music scene. Easy come, easy go, I say. Going forward without “progressing,” or worse, grinding. It’s kind of a collapse of sorts. I’m avoiding the rush, as my man

ecosophia John Michael Greer would advise!

Still out of a job, and I don’t want one. I’m done working for someone else. I’m done having no control over my time. My unemployment was denied. My former friends investigated my misdeeds, as only someone with a degree in journalism could thoroughly do, and thanks to the testimony of the various people who I brutalized during my time at work there, I am feeling pretty chastened by things. I lost my place. And to see what people think of me is crushing. So, the next phase of my life begins.
I don’t feel like being in public anymore. How long that lasts is unknown at this time. I’m probably done being onstage, DJing, appearing on the radio. I’m committed to spending the rest of my life as honorably as I can. Treading as lightly as I can.
Paradoxically, I have never felt better physically, or mentally. It’s great to be at home. Gardening. Reading. Writing. Going to pick up my guitar again. Never again will I live life dishonestly. I am going to withdraw from social media. Facebook first, LinkedIn, then all of the band and DJ accounts, and when I get really brave, I will trim my following

Trying to make time for my friends, while keeping my own counsel. I need to go see my siblings. Get Medicare, get my collection cleared.

Listen. Learn. Forgive. Love